My Three Boys

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalamualaikum.... updating my blog for me anytime I feel like one.  So my last entry was in November 2019.  I was 38 weeks 4 days pregnant.  At 39 weeks, (6 December 2019), I delivered a healthy baby boy at Hospital Kajang.  Alhamdulillah... Allah eased my delivery process.  I went to the hospital that Friday morning because I felt a little bit of contraction, maybe.  I had to check my BP anyway... at KK but decided to have a check at the hospital.  9.30 a.m. - checked up and was told I was 1-2cm dilated.  While waiting for all the process, by 12.30 p.m. I was 3 cm dilated and admitted to the ward.  By 1.30, I checked in, my husband brought me some fried rice. Ate it all. My contractions were going stronger.  At 3.30 p.m. a doctor came in and when he saw me having my strong contractions, he insisted to check and he said I was 4 cm dilated and must go into the labour room.  At 5.09 p.m., Huzaifah was born at 3.47 kg.  Thank you, Allah for awarding us with this boy.

    Today, Huzaifah is almost 15 months old.  He started walking at 1 year old.  He loves his brothers dearly.  Living with boys, they love all the tough and rough games.  Fights are unavoidable.  Siblings fights. Being the only girl / woman in the family, is not that bad.  I like that.  

38 weeks 4 days

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim... Assalamualaikum... wbt...

As usual, I woke up this morning slowly as my big tummy makes me difficult to move as fast as I usually did... It's because of you, my baby inside me.  It's ok, I can still manage to move around sometimes very slowly sometimes like normal...

I want to make any update as the day is getting closer and closer  Of course we never know when exactly you are going to see the world but I know soon enough.  I am a bit cranky today.  I am not sure why, but little things make me snap.  I try to control myself as I don't want to become a grumpy lady when I reach 40 in three years time.  This is the critical time for me to prepare myself.  I want to be calm and patient.  May Allah always help me because I really need His guidance.

Baby, you keep on moving inside me.  Thank you for that.  I love that, sometimes it makes me stop walking or I have to catch a breath.  I don't know what you are doing inside but at least I know that you are alright.  Keep moving, my sweet.  All of us can't wait to meet you... I really hope we will share more than enough love ... by Allah.  Let's always pray for His blessing towards us.  Please pray for Angah Hanz to be very welcoming of you and less grumpy when I attend to you... I will make sure my boys will feel the love from me and abah.

As today is the last day of November, in shaa Allah you are a December baby!  Alhamdulillah... I really want that... thank you Allah.

38 weeks 3 days

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim... Assalamualaikum...
Today is my 38 weeks and 3 days of pregnancy.  Being so pregnant right now and waiting for D-day, I am nervous.  Of course.  I can't wait to meet you, my baby inside me.  I believe abah, abang Hamzah & angah Hanz do too.  Counting days makes me anxious, maybe?  Your due date, according to the red book, is on 10th of December 2019, and because of the GDM, I must deliver you, on that date but I really wish you could come out before that, maybe on the 5th?  It's abang Hamzah's birthday and he'll be 8 this year.  The school has already finished for 2019 session and he will only 8 next week on the 5th.  That's what happen to December  babies.  Back to you my sweet, I hope you can be born in early December but definitely before 9th.  Why?  Well, this morning, the doctor from the KK told me, on the 9th morning, I have to go to the hospital and if there's a bed for me, I will be warded right away.  If there's no bed yet, I'll have to wait, maybe until the afternoon or evening.  By hook or by crook, I must deliver you, on the 10th.  See?  This is why, I want you to be safely born before 9th.  The best date is 5th, but before that is also fine... as long as it is in December.  Whatever it is, I pray to Allah to make this journey of us easier and blessed.  Today is already 29th of November and tomorrow will be the last day of November 2019.  I don't think you are going to come out in November, I guess.  May Allah always bless us, our family and all the muslims. 

This week is the first week of school holidays.  This week, abah helps me to drive and pick up angah Hanz to / at his Taska.  Since Monday until Thursday, he was sleeping so he didn't realize I was at home with abang Hamzah but today was a different story... because of his pee-incident, we had to clean him up first so he definitely awoke.  No trouble at all alhamdulillah.  Later, this morning, his nursery teacher asked me whether I have been warded because angah Hanz was crying and said that he wanted umi.  So I had to explain to his teacher that maybe he was crying because he knew his brother and myself were at home.  He prefers to stay home together if he knows I'm at home.  Well Hanzalah sayang, umi and abah had to do this because we were afraid that I might deliver the baby while abah was at work.  It turned out, not yet... You are better taken care of when you are there... abang Hamzah is a bigger boy and he'll understand if I have to send him to makwan's house or maybe stay for a while at the hospital.  With you, we don't want you to cry your heart out if you have to be left alone at makwan's or the hospital.

Right now, it's almost 5 p.m. Umi and abang Hamzah are waiting for abah and angah Hanz to come home.  Syukur alhamdulillah, I got to spend some quality time with abang Hamzah.  He did ask me to bring me here and there, buy him a new casing for his oppo, accompany him looking at the toys in Parkson and a few others.  Allah wants me to do that.  He's a very thoughtful boy and never burden me.  He wants to watch Ejen Ali the movie so badly but he said he can wait for abah and angah Hanz.  He knows the value to watch together.  Alhamdulillah.  Let's wait for abah to bring us all to the cinema.

By the way, since Friday last week (22nd Nov. 2019) I had to check on my BP and urine as requested by the nurse at the KK.  She said my reading was quite high and my weight gain, I had to check every two days.. They wanted to keep track and see if there should be any concern.  It turned out, everything is ok.  This morning I had my scheduled check up and all the readings were the best... alhamdulillah and the time it took was so much faster compared to my previous visits.  Syukur.  Allah makes it easy for me today.  Baby, I really can't wait to see you.  Thank you for staying with me / in me.  Let's pray for Allah's blessing every second of our breath.  I thank those who are praying for me, for us, for our family.  From 4 to 5 in shaa Allah.  Thank you Allah!

I just got a text message from paksu Anep, he asked me to pick him up tonight, after he finishes his exam.  He had a week class this week.  We are really hoping for him to be a better muslim, to have a halal job, to help out maktok... only Allah can change people, we can just pray.. Let's pray for him, okay?  

Allahumma 'a'inni ala zikrika washukrika wahusni 'ibadatika... 

35 WEEKS 1 DAY

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

So, today is my 35 weeks 1 day of pregnancy.  Syukur alhamdulillah for this opportunity to carry my baby inside me and I pray to Allah for the well beings of myself, my baby and those around me.  As my baby is getting bigger and bigger inside me, I am facing more challenge in doing the chores, both is school or at home.  The biggest challenge is when I want to sit and stand after lying down... wow! what a hard work!  Alhamdulillah... next big challenge is when I have to make a stop or slower my walking pace as the sudden difficulties happen.  I don't know how to describe it but sometimes I think maybe the baby is sleeping? or maybe changing his position?  I have to stop, take a deep breath and then continue.  Alhamdulillah.  I am so blessed to be able to feel this wonderful feelings again.  Allah knows best.  May those who are waiting, will be granted this experience or if not, may Allah ease your journey to His jannah.  You'll be getting what you want one day, if not in this world, in jannah in shaa Allah.  Keep on believing in Allah as He is the only one to know what's best for us and what's not. 

In school, this week is the busiest week of all.  Since Monday, we have a lot of programs, until this Friday.  Wow! But heads up to the teachers for doing their job and tasks willingly and without fail.  May Allah grant us with good health and prosperity.  They are so hardworking, I might not be able to do what they are doing.  So I'm doing my best to do my part the best I can.  

To my two heroes, umi is sorry because sometimes umi gets mad easily.  Maybe it's because of the hormones?  Hahaha... still, I am so sorry.  I love you two soooo much!  You are always making my days brighter.  Allah has rewarded me with the two of you, different yet the same.  With another additional family member in a month time... let's pray to Allah, that He will always bless us in this world and the hereafter.  We have to do what Allah wants us to do and never do what He prohibits us to do.  May Allah grant umi with patience all the way... 

That's about it today.  I really want to remember things during this pregnancy.  I want to be able to read again and enjoy the journey.  Alhamdulillah... in shaa Allah... 

29 Weeks 7 Days

Assalamualaikum... today I'm 29 weeks and 7 days... I want to update this for myself so that I would remember the journey for my second pregnancy.  This is solely for me, never meant to hurt anybody's feeling or just bragging... this is for me... by Allah.  I always remind myself to be grateful for everything that is happening to me.  Thank you Allah.  This time, you let me have this baby in my tummy, you let me feel this beautiful journey again and I should never take it for granted.  I am learning to be patient every day.  Sometimes, I failed, I easily get mad but please Allah, I am trying not to.  I have to istighfar as much as I can in a day...

Yesterday, I went to Tesco Kajang with my two boys, Hamzah & Hanzalah.  I treated them with some chicken rice.  They loved the food but as usual they couldn't finish them all so who did?  I did! By Allah, I love them.  They are the blessings Allah has given to us.  Syukur alhamdulillah.  After eating, they were begging me for some toys.  As usual, Hamzah will go for anything about Beyblade and Hanzalah asked for a stegosaurus.  

Umi bought those for them.  They thanked umi for buying what they wanted.  Not all the time they will get what they want.  They have to learn to accept, 'no means no'.  

As for the little one inside me... (alhamdulillah)... I have to start counting his movement last Thursday, a day after my latest check up on Wednesday.  Starting 9 a.m. I have to count until 10 movements and record them.  May Allah help me with the countings and baby, please help umi.  Give umi you big shots every time!  That's how I know you are well in there too, my love.  Umi loves you.  

Day by day, umi can feel you are getting bigger because umi is getting slower.  I wish Allah will make you not just bigger but healthier, when you are in there.  Bigger accordingly okay?  Make some duas for me that I am healthy enough to carry you in me until it's time for you to see the world.  Always pray to Allah and ask Him to let you be healthier and love him and his messenger, s.a.w.  As I was typing this entry, I can feel you move.  Syukur.  Thank you Allah.  It's just that, sometimes, when I am in school and teaching in class, I forgot to count the movement.  I have to stay focus in class but I know you can understand that, baby.  Be a good student one day, okay?  Love Allah and rasulullah first... Subhanallah... thank you Allah for everything.